These moments in my life, they are filled with such emotions. 
I am trying so hard to understand what I want to do, in my head I want to run away, I want to see my future self doing well, I know I deserve better, I know I deserve a man/woman who loves me. I deserve to be treated like someone cares about me for me, make me feel like I matter. 

But I am finding it harder and harder to connect to people. The ones I want are ones I cant have. Its not fair to myself. I need to let go, I need to be happy. 

But its sad how I’m in this moment in my life, this strange transitional period and I don’t know what is going to happen, and I am scared, I am so scared. I want to do well, and I am trying, but I am stuck. Gripped under this paralyzing fear. 

I dont know where I want to go, what to do, or who I want to be. I want great things with my life, but deep down I have this knowledge that I am good at keeping myself from doing well. Tell a girl enough times in her life she is shit and even if she tries to change it stays the same on a subconscious level. 

I dont know who I am, what I want, who I want. 

All I know is I am a scared girl who puts up such a front that when people get to know the real me they are confused by why I put up walls.

When they get past those walls they see this tiny fragile thing. Then they stomp on the pathetic thing that is really me.

What do I do? Where am I going? Why do I do things? 

I am scared. and feel rather pointless.

Im having a moment of anxiety.


I normally don’t post my feelings like this on my page.


Have a nice day

I know I did, Its my fault and I have not felt bad about any of it till last night. 
I love him. 
I love him so much.
Im so selfish.

He is not mine to love. 

I need to let him be.


Fuck

best-of-funny:

wearitasawormstach:

tall:

pocketpinya:

boomette:

look at that guy on the left he is so photogenic i bet there is a stock photo of him laughing with a salad

fixed that for you

oh my god i found the post that started it all

oh my god my blog is now complete

Thats even more money i dont have -____-

Yay $2 to my name….

SOMEONE BUY PHOTOSHOOTS OR PRINTS FROM ME!!

meeshyarts:

The Trinity of Scientists. Teaching us about our place in this universe one step at a time. 

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mr-radical:

fuckpalpitoad:

SOMEONE SOMEWHERE IS EATING PIZZA RIGHT NOW AND YOURE PROBABLY NOT

im so SUDDENLY AND INEXPLICABLY FILLED WITH HATE

(Source: paddywhackerhandcannon)

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sin-sex-satan:

I will forever bathe in the blood of my enemies

This is perfect

Holy notes batman. This is the most notes on a nude i have ever gotten! =D

kenyarosewaters:

kittens have their first sips of water [x]

 #WHAT IS THIS GODLY ELIXIR? #MANA FROM HEAVEN?? #OH PRAISE JESUS THIS IS DELICIOUS

(Source: justjasper)

amara-alexander:

chicavegan:

Nuf said.

Isn’t “World Goth Day” though?

typophiliac:

Obscuri Macabre Photography

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