These moments in my life, they are filled with such emotions.
I am trying so hard to understand what I want to do, in my head I want to run away, I want to see my future self doing well, I know I deserve better, I know I deserve a man/woman who loves me. I deserve to be treated like someone cares about me for me, make me feel like I matter.
But I am finding it harder and harder to connect to people. The ones I want are ones I cant have. Its not fair to myself. I need to let go, I need to be happy.
But its sad how I’m in this moment in my life, this strange transitional period and I don’t know what is going to happen, and I am scared, I am so scared. I want to do well, and I am trying, but I am stuck. Gripped under this paralyzing fear.
I dont know where I want to go, what to do, or who I want to be. I want great things with my life, but deep down I have this knowledge that I am good at keeping myself from doing well. Tell a girl enough times in her life she is shit and even if she tries to change it stays the same on a subconscious level.
I dont know who I am, what I want, who I want.
All I know is I am a scared girl who puts up such a front that when people get to know the real me they are confused by why I put up walls.
When they get past those walls they see this tiny fragile thing. Then they stomp on the pathetic thing that is really me.
What do I do? Where am I going? Why do I do things?
I am scared. and feel rather pointless.
Im having a moment of anxiety.
I normally don’t post my feelings like this on my page.
Have a nice day
I know I did, Its my fault and I have not felt bad about any of it till last night.
I love him.
I love him so much.
Im so selfish.
He is not mine to love.
I need to let him be.
look at that guy on the left he is so photogenic i bet there is a stock photo of him laughing with a salad
fixed that for you
oh my god i found the post that started it all
oh my god my blog is now complete
Thats even more money i dont have -____-
Yay $2 to my name….
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The Trinity of Scientists. Teaching us about our place in this universe one step at a time.
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SOMEONE SOMEWHERE IS EATING PIZZA RIGHT NOW AND YOURE PROBABLY NOT
im so SUDDENLY AND INEXPLICABLY FILLED WITH HATE
I will forever bathe in the blood of my enemies
This is perfect
Holy notes batman. This is the most notes on a nude i have ever gotten! =D
kittens have their first sips of water [x]
Isn’t “World Goth Day” though?